Betrayal Part 2 of 3

poem

8/30/2024

Pennsylvania

When you said you loved me
Did you mean it?
When you said I was like a sister
Did you meant it?
When you said you'd pay me back
Did you mean it?
The tenth time I gave you money
Did you ever mean to pay me back?
All those times your words lifted me up
Did you mean it?
When you assured me I was safe with you
Did you mean it?
When you assured me I was safe with you
Did you mean it?
As you stuck the needle in my back
Did you mean to be gentle?
When you pushed the drug into my veins
Did you have my interests at heart?

And when we fought
Did you really forgive me?
And when you ignored my messages
Did you mean to?
When days went by with no response
Were you really busy?
Did any thought of me cross your mind
As you smoked near my doorstep?

Because I thought of you
All that we shared
The tears we swept from each others cheeks
The secrets held just between us
The favors I did for you
The gratitude you showed to me.

But isn't it true?
You never paid me back
You never did me any favors
Your speech did not match your actions
You bid me to lie to my husband
You helped me fall back into addiction.

Then absolute silence.